Friday, March 17, 2006

I've Been Thinking...

...frightening I know, but just wait a few moments before screaming in terror.

Ever since I burned out for the first time in college and had to quit, I've kinda been floating along. I worked at Cessna for 2 years before I got laid off and I've been here since then and this is not a job I want to do for the rest of my life. I'd end up in Prairie View Mental Hospital.

I'm interested in lots of different stuff and have considered Criminology, History/Archaeology, Library Sciences and Education degrees. None of those ever felt right and I've also been worried about being up to snuff mentally.

I've burned out, as in worked until I couldn't function (Cessna Health Services sent me to the ER several times in the middle of the work day & told me not to come back for 3 days), 3 different times and I don't focus as well now as I used to. My GPA dropped from 3.85 to 2.85-ish due to the exhaustion.

Anyway, all that to say that I'm coming to a decision.

I've been taking these
Perspectives on the World Christian Movement classes at church and it has me thinking of missions again. I'd considered missions as a kid but then the horses came along and consumed my life. After that rug was yanked from under me (and I discovered that it *is* possible to live without a horse) I lost my direction.

This class is helping me discover it again.

Only problem is, I have no useful skills for the mission field. I am not a teacher or a leader. I don't (yet) know any foreign languages.

However, this has been in the back of my mind but I never really considered it, thinking I couldn't do it.


This would be very usable in the missions field, and could even allow me to go in to otherwise closed countries as a tentmaker like Paul. And someday, when my work there was done, I would have a marketable skill for here.

So basically, I'm looking into nursing programs here and hope to start a class or two this summer.

Oh yeah, I need to start working on learning Arabic or Farsi...


Kat said...

I am so excited for you!! It sounds like you have a plan and something to look forward to. I am really happy that the class is helping you find your path again. That's great!

Tige said...

You can never have too many good nurses out there if you ask me. I know I couldn't do it though.